7 Jeans

OK, So I had heard about these Seven Jeans and today I finally I saw a picture of them on Kleptomaniac.com I want them NOW! The fit is precisely what I like and they're much more cooler than the low rise zaf Diesel Jeans Ive been craving. They go for about $150 but if the fit is perfect, who cares. I have to run to Austin and look for them. Well, not right now, but soon. I'm not sure if they might have them in San Antonio somewhere, maybe Saks. I know i'm picky and I still have to try them on in order to see how they fit. But, ive heard so many good things about them. A friend from Chicago owns a couple of pairs and from what I hear, they're amazing. Check them out! They soooo beat wearing women's jeans (um.. I dont do that..um).

The return

I am so picky when it comes to clothing, shoes, etc. I bought some really nice brown Keneth Cole boots this past Saturday and Im returning them today. I didn't like the way they looked when I tried them on at home. At the store, they didn't look that bad. But, I didn't have a full length mirror to see how I would look from head to toe. I will never buy anything unless I have seen how it looks from head to toe. I had been wanting some cool pointy cowboy boots that had a heel (I have a tendency to want to look taller). I feel bad because when I went to Kelly's Western Wear, I told one of the salesgirls to hold the boots for me. I promised I'd be back to get them, but I ended up buying the Kenneth Cole boots at the mall instead. I never went back for them and now I want them. Thing is, I know the people who own Kelly's Western Wear and they went out of their way to give me a 30% discount. Good grief. So, I plan to return the boots, wait until Friday and go get the $180.00 cowboy boots. Those looked nice and they did make me look taller. I like the way they look with jeans. If I only had the Diesel jeans I so desperately want..UGH!

Ben Sherman

I've been buying alot of Ben Sherman shirts recently. They have really cool styles and designs and they sim to fit really well. They have alot of cool shoes as well. Visit Ben Sherman to see their clothing line.

Color my eggs Pink, Please.

It is Easter. I feel horrible saying this, but for the past 5 years I don't think Ive celebrated this day. I don't think I even care much about it. I'm spending the day eating junk food and watching movies. No, not those movies about the life of Jesus Christ or anything like that. I don't wanna watch The Greatest Story Ever Told! I've seen it a million times. I saw Alfie, the remake with Jude Law. It's an interesting movie. Very sad. I won't give any of the plot away, but I must say that I was left feeling sorry for his (his character).

I didn't get home last night until 4:00AM. I went out with Laura and Bea to Olive Garden and had a nice glass of red wine. I'm not much into the red wines, but this one made my stomach tingle...yum. Afterwards, I got to meet Bea's new boy, Charlie. He's a good looking, funny, sweet guy from the Valley. We all went to Fuego and then to Buck Ugly, the hottest spot in town..UGH! Bea's cousin Ceci met us there and so did Clyte, one of Bea's friends and co-workers. I dont't think the club/bar atmosphere was making anyone happy last night. We ended up leaving early and going back to Bea's house, where we drank some good, aged (and I mean aged...like 1980) cognac. We had a good time chit chatting and making fun of the latin music videos and ridiculous infomercials they air overnight. Charlie apparently didn't know I was gay. He told Bea he couldn't tell. We spent more than 2 hours together and he couldn't tell...wow. I guess I must've done an incredible job of acting masculine or something. When he asked me if I liked boxing, I sarcastically replied "um..no, but I do like Oscar de la Hoya". LOL.

My sister's cat was in the most hilarious pose while he slept. I'm not sure if he was trying to cover his eyes from the sun coming in from the window, or if he was just camera shy. You decide for yourself.

The Makeup

Im dressed and made up. Sometimes I feel a bit embarrassed about the fact that I wear makeup when I go out. And Im not talking full-blown out-drag-queen makeup. I'm talking about powder, some concealer, sometimes makeup to cover up imperfections. No! I don't look like a drag queen! I refuse to think so. I really don't think its that obvious, well at least not in dark lit places...hahahaha JK. I really don't care anyway. I mean most of the guys out there nowadays wear makeup....ok ok, most of the people! I recently bought this really cool Clinique cream called Pore Instant perfector and it works wonders. Your face stays matter and clear and it looks awesome. Ive been wearing that usually and you don't shine throughout the entire time...its a miracle. YAY!

I don't know where I'm going tonight...well at least not sure yet. Laura had called me earlier to tell me we might go to Olive Garden for a drink before deciding where to head out to (meaning a bar or club). Bea is still a bit sick, I think, so I'm not sure we're going somewhere where there will be alot of drinking involved. Or, alot of partying I suppose. I really wanted to go to Vitos, the gay bar in Nuevo Laredo. I haven't been there in ages. I'm not sure Danny wants to go out. Little Tony is probably working and works tomorrow morning. My sister was the only one willing to go, and I doubt just the two of us will go. I wish everyone was more excited to go out tonight. It's probably Laura's last visit to Laredo before she moves to Chicago. Well, maybe she doesn't want to party too much for that reason. Maybe she wants to have a nice, quiet evening. Even though we were never extremely close, Im gonna miss her. We got along great on many different levels. She's a photographer, and she's really into the arts and music. She's also hella fun to hang out with and talk to. She has a great sense of humor and she's not bitter and full of angst like other girls I know ( I wont mention any names here...lol). So I hope this evening is a good one...I belive it will.

Solido!

It's 3:30 AM and I'm eating a smoked ham and cheddar cheese sandwich with doritos. Yummo! I think this is the result of me smoking out with Little Tony and Serge. We went to Grahams tonight. Bea wanted to go because there was this Tejano band called "SOLIDO" playing(ugh). Tony and Serge picked me up, then we picked up this girl named Nancy who lives at the TAMIU dorms. She's friends with Serge I think. Tony confessed to me that she's a cokehead. What a surprise! She was very energetic and pepped up. She has the deepest voice Ive ever heard on a woman...well except for Kathleen Turner...but u know! Well anyways, we went to get Bea but she was a bit sick. It's understandable that she didn't want to go out. She did look tired and she seemed to have a sore throat. I found Melissa at Grahams and she was pretty hammered. I felt kinda bad because she was very fun and drunk and I was super sober. I didn't even feel like dancing. She ended leaving to Buck Ugly, and we left a while later to Vodka Republic...minus Nancy of course. Vodka Republic was full of the gays. Jeeez..who knew? Patrick was there and we had a long discussion about confusing love with lust. Why do I always get into these deep conversations with Patrick at bars? Victor (Hamilton bar owner Victor) walked in a while later with a friend and he said Hi. It was one of those quick Hi's as if to say "I acknowledge you but I can't talk to you because Im not at a gay bar sorta-thing". I noticed him and his friend kept on staring at me and they would whisper things to each other. They were both giggling and smiling but I have no idea if it was about me or not. All I know is that they were both staring in my direction...maybe they were looking at Little Tony or Serge. I fucking hate people that stare! Especially people who are gay and pretend to be straight. As if Vodka Republic was very straight last night. The only gay thing missing from that place was anal sex. There was, however a guy named Eddie who I worked at FOleys with, practically humping this old gay fart. I guess thats the closest it got to anal sex..lol
If I sound like I'm not making sense, its probably because I'm drunk. Aside from being drunk, I'm a bit high. We(Tony and I) smoked the last piece of joint I had leftover. Little Tony and Serge thought it would be a good idea to walk past the gate behind my house to see if we would find a lake. We didn't find anything past that gate. There was only a ditch with water, a lonely dirt road and grass all over the place. Then, Serge insisted I show him photos of when I was 300lbs. I suppose I was a bit embarrassed but I always love looking at old photos. It makes me cringe but whatever. My sister is still awake and I think she noticed we were high because she was outside when we were smoking. What the hell is my sister doing at 3:30AM with a boy outside the house anyway??? I feel like lying down now. Gotta get some sleep.

DSquared 2

The new Fall/Winter 2005/06 DSquared 2 Collection is hott! I just saw pictures from the runway on Modaonline.it There seems to be alot of "Jesus" quotes and emblems on their clothing and accessories. I wish I could afford their clothes...ugh! I guess all I can do is get ideas and run off to the flea market with my 20 bucks. Oh well.

My OJ

It's Thursday morning. The week is going by pretty fast. I woke up just a while ago and my orange juice is slowly rushing through my body. I get an energy rush with orange juice (especially the kind with pulp). I dislike coffee. I don't mind it every once in a blue moon, but I'm just not a coffee person. Caffeine has the opposite effect on me...it gets me tired, fatigued, and sleepy. My boyfriend loves his coffee. For a while I thought I could get to like it as much as he does. But, I don't think it will ever happen.



I got on MSN messenger just now and my friend LH was on. I think it's his birthday because his screen name says so. That's terrible. I can't even remember my friend's birthdays. Then again, I haven't had much contact with him ever since he moved away and came back to Laredo. I don't even know if we're good friends anymore. Actually, I don't think we were ever close. He's one of those people you can hang out with and have fun with, but thats about it. OK, maybe I have a fucked up idea of what a "friend" should be. I miss my friend Annette for example, and I haven't even seen her in ages. And it isn't that I don't care about them or love them. I just never call them. Is it bad to not call my friends? D has told me a couple times that he thinks it's weird that I don't ever call anyone. I have to admit that the only person I do call on a regular basis is Luis, or vice versa. I can't go a day without hearing his voice. But, honestly I can go weeks and weeks without talking to my friends and I'll be OK. I'm a horrible person ain't I? What's wrong with me?

Look Your Best. Who Said Love is Blind?

To Smoke or Not to Smoke

Why am I always so tired?? I woke up really early today to work on some ads for Kirkpatrick. Later, my sister and I went to the gym and I was on the threadmill for almost an hour. I am so tired. My friends probably think I'm an asshole because I never like to go out during the week. I'm starting to wonder if I'm anti social or just lazy. My friend D had invited me to go to a get together at his friend's house and I never called him back. I feel bad about that. I had however, told him we could hang out tomorrow night. All I wanna do right now is sleep. But, like always, I'm having trouble. I found the end of a small joint in my drawer just now, and I'm debating whether I should smoke it or not. I suppose it could help me sleep..or at least that's what I've heard. I talked to my boyfriend a while ago and he suggested a shot of alcohol and a joint would do the trick...lol. I haven't smoked since the last time my friend D was here. We had gotten into the habit of smoking out on wednesdays. But, we haven't done that in over a month. I know Im gonna miss my friends once I'm gone. I need to make an effort to spend more time with them.

By the way, I'm not a pothead. Do not judge me.

Mark Liddell

There's a really cool photographer I just found out about...Mark Liddell. He's from Jamaica. He started his career as a fashion photographer, and has moved on to photographing celebrities. He has a really unique, beautiful, approach to photographing people. Visit his website:

http://www.markliddell.com

Road Trip Pictures

Some pictures Mel took with my digital camera in Austin. Very abstract I think.

Nightmares

There was no nightmares last night. Only a dream. I was at a party. There was a reunion of some sort and many of my friends from high school were there. All of them were married and had children. And, I felt so embarrased that I wasn't married or had kids, that I was trying to hide from them. I go hide in my gym, for some strange reason. I'm there with my sister. I get on the threadmill and next to me I see an old friend who tells me how overweight Ive gotten since high school. I go to the locker room cause I have an incredible urge to pee and when I look down, Ive peed all over myself. I wake up.
I had been having nightmares pretty much every day in the past two weeks. And they were the kinds of dreams where you feel like waking up but you can't....like if a strong force is pushing you down and you can't raise your body from the bed. One in particular that scared the shit out of me was the one I had two weeks ago. I dreamt I was asleep in my bed, when suddenly my door opened, someone walks into my room,walks towards the bed, and hits me in the back of my head with a hammer. I woke up, turned around and no one was in the room. My head was in incredible pain. The next night I had the same exact dream, only this time I was hit on the head with a pillow. I'm not sure what these dreams mean. I assume they were the results of me being physically tired and stressed. I stopped taking my vitamins, which I thought were the ones causing the nightmares.

Remixes

What's up with all the reggaeton remixes out there? I heard the remix ("Karma") this weekend at a club in Austin and my cousin told me it was Alicia Keys. I had no idea. It has a really cool vibe to it. There's even a reggaeton remix of "Drop it Like it's Hot" now. I'm starting to wonder if these are original remixes or bootlegs. Who knows. They're still groovy as hell. Reggaeton rules!
There's also alot of new club remixes of popular songs out there. I wonder if my passion for club remixes has to do with the fact that I'm a gay man...? Like a friend of mine once said, "the gays remix everything"..so true.
Music on my Playlist right now:

Gwen Stefani - Hollaback Girl
Destiny's Child - Soldier (Maurice Club Anthem)
Seal - Killer 2005
Rod Stewart - Do you think I'm sexy (Peter Rauhofer remix)
Prodigy - Smack my Bitch Up

Gotta get sleep now.

The Love of my Life

This is Luis, the love of my life. He currently lives in Washington D.C. He is originally from Laredo. The main reason for me moving is because he is there. We've been together for almost 4 years now. And, even though we've had our ups and downs, we've managed to grow in our relationship and continue loving each other each day that goes by. There are no words to express how happy he makes me. I am incredibly lucky to have him in my life. I wish everyone who reads this could go inside my heart and my mind and experience what love is all about. For those who have no belief or faith in love, I can only say that you're missing out on something incredibly magical...only God could provide this miracle.There are a million reasons why I adore this beautiful creature, but for now, I can only say....Shhhhhhhh! Isn't he delicious?? I miss him shitloads *sigh*

Austin Weekend!

This past weekend I visited Austin. South by Southwest festivities were being held this weekend where musicians and rock and punk bands from all over were there performing. I traveled with my friend Melissa and my cousin and her friends. Once there, I got to see and hang out with my brother who lives there. I also spent time with my friend Laura, another Laredo native who now resides in Austin. We didn't get to attend any of the shows, but we did party at several clubs and bars. We went to a club called Vicci's, where the ambient and music was so much fun (they even played Gasolina..the white people really love that shit...who knew). The weekend went pretty well. There was a couple of unfortunate mishaps:
1. Laura and I leaving my cousin and her friends at Vicci's to go to a gay bar, then not being able to find them all night. It turns out they had their cell phones inside their SUV, and I had the kyes...oops.
2. Making a fool out of myself by tripping as I walked off the dance floor at Vicci's and falling in front of a crowded club....jeez (I was pretty hammered)
3. Having stupid arguments with my brother throughout the entire trip. I think we annoy each other sometimes...but, I still love him. He's my brother.

I don't know if I'll be able to visit Austin again before I move to D.C. I love Austin. It is such a beautiful weird city. I just wish I could've gotten a bit more rest this weekend. I'll try to post some more pics I took with my digi cam soon. For now, here's a pic of Melissa and Laura and I hanging out at Kerby Lane on Saturday.





My First

Hi. Let my start by introducing myself. My name is Tony and I'm 26 years old. I live in Laredo TX, and I do photography, web design, and Computer networking for a living. I'm still to finish college, but right now Im holding it off because I will be relocating. I'm a communications major. I love photography and anything revolving around it. Pursuing a career in photo journalism is one of my goals. But like I said, for now I will hold that off because of my moving. In mid May, I will be moving to Washington D.C. I plan to work there and later in the future, hopefully finish school.

Wish me luck.