Im Getting Married and Im not kidding.

I'm Getting married! It is official. I think we're going for an August/Fall wedding. Both of our schedules will be very busy once September starts, so if possible, we might do it in late summer.

Luis and I had already talked about getting married for the past year or so. This past Sunday we went to Eastern Market and we were browsing around when we came upon rings. We decided to buy matching silver rings. They are not traditional engagement rings..but HELLO we're gay, I guess it wont be a traditional marriage. Well, they're beautiful and even though they fit a tiny bit big, we both wear it every day. Its funny how I look at it and smile. Its weird how a small little ring can bring back thoughts of happiness. Luis' ring fits a bit bigger than mine but I think its so cute that he wears it anyway. I never thought Id own an engagement ring (or a ring that symbolized my promise to love one man for the rest of my life) for that matter. I am happy. I think this is the happiest Ive been in a while now.

When Luis was back in Laredo, he told his dad about it. I posted his reaction on an earlier posting. Read (Luis Comes Back Home). I know my family all knows. I don't know what exactly they think. My mother offered to help with as much as she could. But, she still has never told me what she really thinks about it. I don't know if maybe she thinks it's not really gonna happen. Who knows. All I know is that I dont care about having a lavish wedding or anything of that sort. Actually, the smaller the better for me. Im excited. I want to start planning. I want to have a budget. I don't want any china. I want cool things. I want a marriage. I want kids someday. Not now. I want to know that I will have security and love for the rest of my life. And, how can I not with Luis in my life. I adore him. He is mine and mine only. He will soon be my husband...is that what im gonna call him????

Otra Hamburguesa Por Favor

Another day at work. I am on my lunch break. I am having a really good cheeseburger with fries. No mayo. I can't stand mayonaisse on burgers. It takes away the taste and goodness of a good burger. A good burger, being one with mustard! I love mustard on my burgers. Come to think of it..I love blue cheese on my burger. It might be a 'Texas' thing. McDonalds had a Texas Homestyle Burger for a while and it had lots of pepper and mustard. Back home, the burger chains and local joints have mustard in their burgers. No mayo no ketchup. Just mustard. Mexican burgers are outrageous though. Refried beans, mayo, avocado, ham, provolone cheese and jalapenos...these mexis go crazy building a burger! It's quite tasty, but just too much crap for me to take. Mexican hot dogs are the bomb! Anyone from back home who's had one after hitting the clubs across the border on the weekend, knows exactly what Im talking 'bout! Those damn hot dogs with the bacon wrapped around it and the salsa and onions and tomatoes....OOOHH! I can cum in my pants just thinking about it. Whats wrong with me? Why am I being such a fat kid? Ive been having a huge appettite...whats the deal? Im sick. Im supposed to be having chicken noodle soup.

Luis Comes Home

Luis is back. I missed him terribly the week he was gone. He came back looking even cuter and sexier than ever. He got new glasses. His father apparently now has glasses that he sells so after he gave him the eye exam, he took a look at the selection he was offering and he got some really cute, small, brown glasses.

I don't think his trip was as fun as he expected it to be. He got the courage to tell his father about us, about us wanting to get married. That was really brave of him. Apparently his father's response was "so it wouldn't be a real wedding." This hurt Luis. He was hoping for far more emotional support than that. I told him that his father loves him very much, but that we can't expect people to understand the whole gay thing. Some people are just fine never having to talk about it. However, in this case, it was necessary that it be brought to his attention. I think the trip was also a bit boring for him because his family never shows much excitement when he goes to visit. They never really plan things to do with him. I feel so bad for my sweet baby. I think he had an OK time but not GREAT. Elizabeth, his older sister wasn't being very nice to him either the last few days before he came back home. I think that upset him as well.

Luis also got to see my family, and they sent me their love along with food! YAY! He brought back pictures of my parent's newly remodeled house. It isn't finished yet, but its come a long way. The bathroom is gorgeous. I'll post pictures when I get them uploaded. My mom and Joseph (my lil bro) are coming to visit me November 11th weekend. I am very excited about that. I miss my family terribly.

Stumble & Fall

I am madly in love. It is something I knew. It is something I feel. Sometimes people make mistakes. Sometimes there are bumps in the road that if they never occurred, would make one unaware of their feelings. I have made some mistakes in the past month or so. I take full responsiblity for them. All I know is I am regretful. I love my true love beyond words, and Im so happy that he loves me.
Remember, we all stumble, every one of us. That's why it's a comfort to go hand in hand. ~Emily Kimbrough

My friend Laura emailed me Sunday evening. She is pregnant. She seems excited and scared. It is so strange to know she is pregnant. I am happy for her. I haven't spoken to her in a while, but I want to see her, congratulate her. I hope she is doing well.

Luis is leaving to go home on Saturday. I will miss him. But, at least he gets to see my family and some friends. He's getting to see HIS family which is most important. I have a list of things I need to give him to bring back to me.

Shining Re-edited

During my lunch break I found a really funny re-edited movie trailer of The Shining.
If you havent seen The Shining, do not bother watching this for it won't make any sense. Unless you see this trailer and then go rent The Shining...damn, that would be hilarious!

Here it is:
http://www.ebaumsworld.com/videos/shining.html



Music on my playlist right now:

Ms Jade - Feel The Girl
Black Eyed Peas - Disco Club
Ying Yang Twins - Wait
Pussycat Dolls - Beep
Goldfrapp - Black Cherry
Madonna - Hung Up (Jacque Lu Cont dub)